Change is inevitable. Buddha or Oprah or my yoga teacher or someone equally important said this. I think it’s true. And I also think that all change has good and bad in it. For example, this move of mine has so much good in it for me. Maybe using the word “bad” is the wrong term, but there is also a cost.
There are elements to this change that make me sad and will be difficult. First and foremost, it will be very hard for me not to have access to my family and friends and friends who are family that live in Boston. I know we will visit and cell phones and the Internet make great distances much smaller, but it won’t be the same.
I think it’s human nature – or at least my nature – to want to avoid negative feelings. I don’t want to be sad or miss people, but the reality is that I will. It would be a waste of years of very good therapy if I just ignored this fact. I will do my best to sit with these feelings and not run away from them, but it’s not the most comfortable or natural process for me.
In the realm of ridiculous analogies that float through my head, I feel like my life is kind of like a Boggle game. At the moment, I’ve done all of the combinations I can with this particular set of letters. It’s time to shake the game up and find new words. I still want to keep the letters I like, but I really need new letters to play with. And Seattle has all of the new letters I want. Somewhere Buddha and Oprah are cringing at this last paragraph.
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